I..... :{

I. Can't. Believe. It.

 I really can't. I almost forgot what today was.

 Today is the date one of my he's test friends in the universe left me on earth.

     How could I have forgotten that. And all day I felt a crumminess that I could not escape and th days events gust built up that I felt I was going to implode and when I saw the date, about 2 minutes ago, it just clicked. And understanding flooded through me followed by melancholy thoughts of her previous memorials.

And every year I find my self pining for her to be here so that we could get to know each other as adults and so that we can say that we were well seasoned with her life before we had it extracted from our grasp. And how I had just gotten my camera, I think that summer so I didn't even get a picture of her as a keep sake. And that I have she is safe. I would die if I knew she was suffering after all that she had been through.

 If anything I hope God gave her for my sake a chance just incase she didn't dot all her t's and dot all her i's, because in her defense she was a child ( of God) even if she hadn't gotten to shout it to the world yet.

 Nikki, I love you and always will miss you

            Your Jess Jess 

Kinda Bummy

 Hello Webbers!!!

 I have some sadness to deliver... All though it may not seem sad. Anyways, I will not be posting for a REALLY long time because I need to study and shit. I plan on doing better than ANYONE!!! (lol) As if that is actually possible. There will always be someone that is better at you in something... and in this case there are many of those.


So I will be checking to see what is going on from time to time. but I probably wont post anything. If I do post something its probably out of pure rage or the fact that my dog had puppies on Tuesday. When I say puppies I really only mean 2. I think that all her body can care for. This is her second litter. The last time she only had 3, but the 3rd one wasn't fully developed. I will post pictures and so on in time and then you probably wont see me until after...maybe May... not too sure right now.

I have something else tat I need to address real quick.

 I'm gonna start a new blog.

 I was gonna cut this one because its so depressing now. BUTT!!! yes butt. I want to keep this. I guess because it's mine and it's kind of hard to just give something up like that when you have such a personal attachment to it... See what I'm saying? Coolz.

 So now I'll have 2 blogs and the new one will seem more like me and my friends would actually believe that it belongs to me and not some depressed chick that lives in a dark room.  THE REAL ME!!

 Yea so... That's it for a couple months. Stick around. My new blog might just be AWESOME!!! ^_^

 LATAZ!!!

♫ I Am Sixteen Going On Seventeen ♫... wait today is my birthday... I am seventeen ^_^

I am of the age to get my drivers license *excited* ... but not in my country.

So I am now seventeen. This is so... not different... in... anyway.Hm. Well. That just wont do. what shall I do? Kinda short notice to be asking these questions. I am such a pansy of a seventeen year old.

 First I'm gonna make a reference to the song from "Sound of Music" in everything I do today... I've actually been doing that since October,but people can't tell me to shut up today 'cause it's my actual birthday and that would just be way mean (o_o).


I hope I enjoy tomorrow even without the lack of activity. AND! I hope people don't shove work at me like they usually do on a Saturday. I do not and I repeat DO NOT need a repeat of Nikki's birthday. I did want to make this cake though. I just looked so cool but you need 19 packs of Twix (yum) and a whole bunch of M&M's. I'm not a big fan of M&M's. I just thought that colourful chocolate was gross without actually tasting it. I am truly something else. I mean... chocolate is suppose to be brown don't add the possibility of thinking you're allergic to chocolate when its red dye or something stupid like that.

 If you really loved chocolate you wouldn't disguise it's true colour. A Der!!

 So my mom ... when I showed her this magnificent looking baked good she said "wow". Then I told her how many packs of Twix were bordering this creation and she said forget it >.> . Which was half expected on my part. Oh poop.

 My sisters in Texas (including Judah) sent down a card for me with my Aunt Natalie. I got it a few hours ago. And I told my mom I was gonna wait till it was my birthday and she said " You're going to stay up till 12" and of course I said "Of course". So I must go do that. I wonder if I have any awesome friends waiting for my birthday as well... maybe my phone is dead... very likely. But then again I barely use it so they would know better not to send anything to it. I'll just check Facebook... maybe I shouldn't.

I be gone.

 The time posted was scheduled so it is correct if I hadn't scheduled it then it would have prob said 9:20 something.

Good bye till later ^_^

The Times... how they bug me

 Hiya.

 If you add 3 to the times that you see for the post then you get the times that I actually posted it. O found the thing to change it... but it felt so weird changing it. So i'm leaving them ^_^. Is that silly of me. TOO BAD I'M SILLY!!